Moving into week 3 of Brene Brown's e-course, the next guidepost and intention focused on calm and stillness. Play (week 2) is a large part of my life already, but I really struggle with slowing down and finding stillness. I am constantly go go go. I make to-do lists in my sleep. My brain has a hard time shutting off and sleep has become problematic in the last few years. I started taking a yoga class in January (Fat Yoga and it's awesome!) and that has helped. However, the last five minutes of yoga, during shavasna, are always the hardest. The goal is to create more clearing in my life and to integrate more moments of stillness.
With this art journal spread I wanted to integrate collage again, but I wanted the paper piecing to be more visible. I painted a bird onto the collaged paper and then added background paint and stencils. Following Portlandia's Put a Bird on It skit, I've heard many a joke about the bird mania in this town. It's true, I love birds. I am that person. I've been making bird and owl crafts (pillows and broaches mainly) for years. I have no shame for my bird love!
During this course we're encouraged to be brave and share our journals with the e-course community via the Courage Board. While I still have self doubt every time I post, it's been really encouraging to see the posts made by others and it makes it easier to share mine. I don't think I would have started this blog if I hadn't started sharing there first. I was happily shocked (seriously, heart racing and HOLY SHIT!) when I went to the website one day to see my journal page above featured on the front page of the courage board! The photo was also included in emails that went out that week regarding the course. Truthfully, I was also a little horrified. I don't even know what I was so afraid of or (the exposure? critiques?), but I talked to my friend Vanessa (who is the greatest of encouragers) and reminded myself that those were shame gremlins and "brave" is my word for this year.